Walking and Pistolero Films

Started walking again and eating healthy! And the house is pretty much clean! See how long this will last! Going to keep this short as i'm about to go for my 2nd walk of the new week!

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let the cleaning begin!

ok so this has to stop, because if i dont stop it now and control it then my laziness and lack of self control will flow over into my up coming work on my short film and i don't want that to happen, so i've started to rip up the whole house and clean it, i figure perhaps having a clean house is a good start for feeling more motivated, i haven't cleaned in 6 months and since i've got back from QLD i've had clothes sitting out from my suitcase that i haven't just put away yet. I've started with ripping up the first half of the lounge room, moved the couch and pulled up the magic carpet and given the floor boards a mop, when that half dries i'll turn this computer off and move it around and get this half mopped..then the kitchen, bathroom, bedroom etc..hopefully before i go to work at 19:30 my place will look refreshingly clean! Till then...

Need more Motivation!

Been a while since my last post, think i might make an effort to post more, not sure how it will help. Maybe i might pick up some sympathy from someone in cyberspace! Because i do like attention, i crave for it most of the time (and now i can sense a bout of honesty coming on), is probably why i check my e-mail so much, when i'm at work i log into my e-mail on my phone and check it constantly sometimes, just to see if someone has e-mailed ME..it's getting a bit out of hand and is almost like an addiction, i wish i could stop it but i cant! So yes the last week i'm lacking Motivation, well in a way it's been lost for a while, since i'm not sure when, but it's weird because ever since i've met a couple of filmmakers earlier in the year i've made two great mates, and i look forward to the moments when i hang with them and talk anything related film..through them i've got so many opportunities and experience..i've discovered two other people who are as passionate as me and who have a few similar interests too me outside of film (beer and soccer haha) too which is awesome! So that part of my life is happy, for sure! Yet everything else isn't quite at the same level, i've been single for too long (my whole life in fact) and i've been trying to loose weight once again to increase my chances of meeting a girl (and be healthy too of course) and i get so far, and then i take a step back...like i recently lost 5 kilos since i got back from QLD but the last week two weeks the motivation has just dissapeared again, i've been for a walk once and when i worked on this VCA shoot the last two days i found myself pigging out on the good food they catered! So now i'm thinking (well today i was anyway)...maybe it would be easier to focus and keep motivated if i had a girlfriend, someone to look forward too seeing everyday, keep me occupied and motivated when i'm not making films. But it's a Catch 22 isn't it, if i was fitter and heathier, wasn't such a slob i might meet a girl, yet to to do that i have to find the motivation and passion to loose weight first. A friend of mine deb said to me recently 'If only you had that passion to loose weight that you have to make movies'. My personality should be enough, but my confidence isn't enough and the opportunties i get to meet girls aren't great and when i do they seem to only ever want to be friends with me!

So there ya go, i've said what i'm thinking, got it off my chest..but i dont feel any better..maybe tommorow i'll find that motivation again...maybe not..probably take a life threatening situation to wake me up at the moment i think.

till next time, over and out..

Furious Angels help me work!

I've decided that you should get a copy of Furious Angels by Rob D, he did that awesome song Clubbed to Death which was on the Matrix Soundtrack, Furious Angels was actually on the Reloaded Soundtrack, this second song of his is just as awesome and i've decided it is this sort of inspirational music i'm going to play while i'm working away on Photoshop, Final Cut Pro or trying to write scripts..which is an area i definately need inspiration on!

The lyrics, sounds like it's a dark love story set in a mafia world..a Sin City! (love that movie)

Like a sentence to death
I've got no options left
I've got nothing to show now
I'm down on the ground
I've got seconds to live
And you can't go now

Cause love, like an invisible bullet has shot me down and I'm bleeding - yeah, I'm bleeding
And if you go, furious angels will bring you back to me

You're a dirty needle
You're in my blood and there's no curing me
And I want to run
(like the blood from a wound)
To a place you can't see me

Cause love, like a blow to the head, has left me stunned and i'm reeling - yeah, I'm reeling
And if you go, furious angels will bring you back to me

You're a cold piece of steel between my ribs and there's no saving me
And I can't get up from this wet crimson bed that you made for me

Cause love, like a knife in the back, has cut me down and I'm bleeding - yeah, I'm bleeding
And if you go, angels will run to defend me - to defend me

Cause i can't get up
I'm as cold as a stove
I can feel the life fade from me
I'm down on the ground
I've got seconds to live
Then what's there that waits for me?

Cause love, like a sentence of death has left me stunned, and i'm reeling - yeah, i'm reeling
And if you go, furious angels will bring you back to me

Hiddeyyy Ho

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